cdc

last day in cdc for me. i will describe my xin qing as mao dun, veryveryvery mao dun. i will miss cdc de. thksthksthks for e many beautiful n funfunfun memories, hahaha i'll forget those bad ones. its true, i had fun!! 4yrs k? not 4months(?!?!?)

yups. as to why i start to dislike cdc its my fault i know. last time esp sec 2, i feel so... alone. outcasted? hah i wouldnt say so. because its my fault. even if i was outcasted, it was me who outcasted myself. cos i could see that everyone wanted to mingle around n everybody were really nice to me. hahahahaha i promise not to outcast myself agn!!! WHOO~~

if i were to restart from sec 1, things would have been really different. if i hadnt been so such a loner, i would have been happier. definitely. well maybe not but hahaha?? anyway, maybe my passion for cdc would have been kept at 100%%% manymany lonely times of me stoning, trying to fnd something to do, pretending to find something to do. going to toilet for no apparent reason?!? haha etc. feeling emo n suddenly going for walks. sec2. very emo. i dont know how to face my juniors, i cant communicate freely with my seniors. maybe i was a nerd?? maybe my appearance shook ppl off?? i mean e first impression usually makes e mark, it affects how ppl treat u nxt time when u interact. maybe maybe?? so i've been tying to change myself in sec 3. hoho n that thing happened in sec 3 agn. first few months i was really quiet during class, i had no really close frens in the whole sch except for weike n vava. no sense of belonging to my class 3it. hah no wonder now a lot of ppl say i changed le. sec 3 so quiet now so.. different?!? hah im just too shy lar!! i just cant mingle with strangers, be it first time or second time meeting. i seriously think my social skills got prob, its like other ppl can get along well, veryveryvery well with others but why cant i?? i think i've been keeping to myself too much. a lot much. i could have made more frens lar!! angry with myself lar. im so notnotnotnot going to let this happen in jc. i hate tt feeling of being alone. i hate tt feeling of being in a grp yet feel uninvolved. so, open up n embrace youth!!! hahahaha!! anyway during this time of life we should be happy n enjoy life rite?? we shouldnt be emo, shouldnt feel lonely, shouldnt outcast ourselves. should study hard. n play hard. suo wei "ALL WORK N NO PLAY MAKES JACK A DULL BOY" n "SHAO ZHUANG BU NU LI, LAO DA TU SHANG BEI" we should not overstudy(nerd) n we shouldnt overplay(?!?) too. if not arh, later we'll look back when we're old n gan tan, why nv study/play harder?? sososo must balance heh! *using a electronic balance, measure out equal mass of work n play n add them to a conical flask. connect e delivery tube to e flask n shake e flask. start e stopwatch immediately. stop e stopwatch when u get e end product. precaution: must add equal mass, cannot too much or too little of each.* heh cool huh? bio chem n phy spa---3 IN ONE, INSTANT SPA REMEDY ho!! hahaha n finally first impression is oso important!!! =DDDDDDDDDD