2nd day of trng

FOREWORD: THIS IS A LONG POST! READ AT OTOT(OWN TIME OWN TARGET) OR CAN DONT READ LAH! BUT I'LL BE SAD;( *SPARKLING BIG EYES*

today was the second day of trng! today was BUSY BUSY N MORE BUSY!! had to learn almost evrything abt the machine! &still gt two more!! totaly complicated, must press this press that. hahaha &im sry i wasted damn lot of paper today. printing all those receipts HAHAHAHA.

today was abit late. abit only horh. then began to talk abit n intro abit. lets see, *takes out notes* oh learned abt e preparation before shift n after shift. uh huh, then must check this check that. then went on to be split into smaller grps, n began e lecture. nt really lecture cos aft that was practical with the machine itself! hey its difficult can. must rmb this rmb that. now i think cashier job is really xin ku. yea no longer think its piece of cake. i mean nt for me la. but last time when i go supermarket see those cashier its like they damn qing song liddat. oh man but for me why so xin ku! hahah shall nt start complainin now. must HAO XUE LI XING! must persevere!

then learnt e different ways of scannin products. one is scan barcode(e easiest way). the other is key in the longlong no under e barcode urself(quite tedious) n still gt one is enter department code, like for non-scannable items like apples, fish n all these cos they gt no barcode mah. then must rmb the department code and must know e price!(this one is headache. now im still tryin to memo for tmls assesment) n supposed to have one more way. but i forgt!! :O i better try to recall!! oh i rmb!!! WOOO IM SAVED!! haha its the preset buttons la.

er then learnt abt the discounts ntuc fairprice(i must liddat say) gt. really quite a lot arh! gt wine discounts, elderly discount, u discount n the policies like pwp n bring ur own bag! haha ppl bring ur own bag to ntuc fairprice shop and get 10cents off with min SGD$10 purchase! hahah but that button very scary arh! nt so la but im still abit bu fang xin.

then its the "member" thing. u know when goin to pay that time the cashier will ask" member?" ARH THAT ONE! hahah the linkpoints system i think :D knew abt it cos last time dad was a member. n must recognise e cards can gt LP n those that cant. then must swipe here swipe thr.

then learnt how to accept vouchers when ppl pay. must specially press keys de ok. so nt easy lor. &i must say im quite havin fun tappin at the keys of the cash register. haha tml will be learnin how to (let the customers) use NETS and cashcard to pay. then mon learnin the credit card one i think. gt 3 machines can! i scared i will jin zhang when it comes to e real thing. better nt let see any shou/shu ren durin first few days of work. if nt i will collapse/ faint/ get too excited/ get too scared/ get too nervous then hopefully i will nt use the wrong keys. this is money -- a sensitive issue ok! but anw i think oso nobody zhuan cheng visit. cos its far!(for most of my frens) n they oso wont like so suddenly say "oh i want to go the ntuc fairprice at XXXX to shop!" haha anw i din disclose whr im goin to work so erm... im gna be safe? haha kiddin la. but really i scared i nt enough slp. i kinda miss stayin at home. the outside world is harsh, and i don wna test it out. being in sch is like so damned protected. sch canteen is different from hawker centres n coffeeshops(this everyone shud know by now) n working environment is so different from sch env. altho both are learnin, but its like yea, different. so kids! see! dont be so eager to grow up yet, it may not be a gd thing. workin in society is not like at home or in sch, whr ure "protected" by ur parents or teachers. when ure workin most of e time ure dependent on urself n u gta fend for urself. nt wait for others to help u n think everythings a piece of cake that kind. (NONO its not from some personal experience or smth, just some gan chus) but this is definitely a new experience in life, at least im doin smth. cos ive been doin nth for too long alrdy, its time for me to do many things.

sry for looooooooooooooooooooooooooong lennnnnnnnnnnnnnngthy and woooooooooooooooooordy post. no pics cos its nt v appropriate to take pics.

OUTINGS ARH!!! IM LIKE SORT OF REMINDIN EVERY POST. DON BELIEVE? SCROLL TO THE BOTTOM OF EVERY POST AND WHAT DO U SEE THR? hahaha dont tell me english words and sentences. thats lame. (laughs at myself) so thr is still ice skating outing tml? its at leisure park? aiya ask so much for what, i oso cannt go. &it seems like a lot of ppl oso nt goin. why ne? actually i dont mind. but must see the rate first la. see if hua suan nt. cos i noob then if i keep fallin down evrytime i try to stand up, i might as well be spending one hour rubbing my butt or knees or elbows which are suffering from all the falls n worse, coldness. hmmm... ok maybe i shudnt say so much. so.... HAVE FUN THOSE WHO ARE GOING! MORE FUN THAN FALLS OK! THEN MUST TAKE PICS AND SHOW ME AND SHOW THOSE NV GO DE, LET THEM REGRET. muhahahaha!!! ive decided to put the muahaha as small print cos its erm.... too unladylike for a fine gal like me. (someone:"who are u kiddin") nobody! hahaha sry too vain le.

i miss everybody. well the loneliness these days(today was ok. ate lunch!! n sort of made a new fren) made me think that really! must cherish every single fren. even if u dont like that person, try to ren la. n best if can, tell that person why u dont like him/her(that is ONLY if that person is nt some tigress or smth n is very open to opinions) n ppl, if u guys dont like me or hate a certain part of me must tell me kays? dont leave me hangin thr leh. haha yah, i wud appreciate if u guys tell me what i nid to improve on. of cos nt like what "i think ur nose is too flat" OR "i think ur fingers are too short" huh how can i improve all these?! hhaa plastic surg maybe but i wudnt recommend. if ppl are unsatisfactory abt ur looks i suggest use make-up, as in cosmetics. or try to change smth, like ur hairstyle, ur earrings, ur glasses etc. n of cos most imptantly, ur personality. im nt like sayin change overnite, n oso nt like take on others personality. DONT EVER TRY TO TAKE ON OTHERS PERSONALITY COS ITS SO NT U! its like try to take note what this guy like or dislike, n that gal like or dislike. like for eg, if someone dont like u to be lame, then dont be lame! gt arh! i pri sch gt one fren(classmate), she doesnt like me to say jokes n interrupt class(smth like durin sec1 n sec2 yan lao shi's class. hahah pri i (not always) interrupt class n joke with e teacher de.) so when shes arnd i try to lessen the quantity(like some producing line:D) yea, but we're still kinda hi-bye frens then. haha nvm. just sharin my personal experience. cos i think there are still some ppl out thr, maybe far or near me, that used to be like me(loner la! what else hahah) e feelin is simply terrible. feelin of aloneness &with the passin of time u will gt zi bei/ zi bi/ whatever. let me share cos i dont feel like memo the dept codes or slpin or doin smth else altho i have to! its like i dread( well nt exactly) project work or grpwork. cos i'll be alone:D (that smile is fake one, supposed to b sacarstic but dno whether u can sense it nt) then while i look at oth ppl happily formin grps n tokin n laughin with their usual frens(now we call clique) thr will be yi zhen :( fu xian zai xin tou. haha ok no chi. anw ya i'll feel sad. then i will have no grp n must wait for tcher to say "who no grp" then i will raise hand. everybody look at u when u raise hand(oth then those engrossed in their chitchat session with their best budds) some ppl even like look at u for the first time that kind. that kind of attention is what i call unwanted attention. nobody wud like to be noticed that way. i mean first time, second i think its kinda ok. but if its like tenth time? ok nt so kua zhang for me i think. but that feelin of unwantedness, like nobody wants u that feelin, its horrible. so it makes me "zi bi" more( nt exactly zi bi in autistic but emo that kind but its nt emo without a reason.) then ppl will think i hard to get along. so i no frens. haha wth! misjudge! hahaha kiddin la. wait must paragraph! rmb what ms gan/ mr yazeed/ ms kaur says abt paragraphing?

WOAH thats so long a paragraph! sry but i gan chu liang duo(oops chi agn) so ya. u know its like typin n typin cos u kno what to say. &im nt emo or feelin sad. im tryin to evaluate what has gone wrong to make me so loner(last time la of cos) now still quite lonely la, but i'll nv let it get over my head agn. ok back to sharing. &apparently now im tryin to collect ppls first impression of me so that i can change/ do smth to portray a better image of myself. cos ppl usually judge by first imp. if ppl firstimp u as v outgoin they will be more "able to talk" with u. but if they think u quiet quiet de, they might try to talk to u for once or twice to see if u really are quiet or just shy. hahah i think i portray a wrong side of me to ppl. hmmm so far ppl has said smth like, introverted(this one i say de:D), "quiet" is one of the most common words i hear. really quiet arh? hahah was feelin kinda puzzled when ppl described me liddat for e first time. its like, when was i ever quiet? since pri sch i was "Big Mouth" the one interrupt lesson n joke arnd de. n then i tot abt it. yah, i really damn quiet when with strangers de leh. i think its shy ba. like sec3. k usin sec 3 as eg. (reminder: new paragraph!)

this is real situation(how i feel). TRUE STORY OK! GT COPYRITE DE ORH!

i was worryin. arnd dec that time when i gt posted into IT. cos its different class with weike n elva. n few ppl i know. n not so close sommore. like clarissa, huiyan guides de. sec 1 know them but nt so very close. then like jacie, since pri 5 or 6 but only talked a few times(but i know her name la). then like rachelle when she used to be in cdc n same class with elva, sometimes i see her with elva when i rarely go find her(elva) durin sec2. sunfei when she in cdc but nt so very close too. (aiya i like nt so close with quite a lot of ppl cos that time i gao zi bi mah HAHA) then guys like not alot, other than jinming, zhongming n yea, same class(lower sec) mah of cos know each oth. then weiting(EB!!!) n ya. then oso some ppl whom i heard before their names, like natalie(that counsellor HAHAH, no sacarsm k. i know her as counsellor. the small small cute cute de. hah but now shes big n all mature n chio yea lab partner?) then jiawen jiamin cos they twins(HAHA weird reason eh) n some yea cant rmb. then i was abit worryin how to make frens n bond with these ppl n others in the class. scared i cudnt. n i really cudnt!(sort of) mr lo the principal was like sayin smth abt transition from lower sec to upper sec. some ppl take long some ppl take short. then at that time i told myself 3 months, ok? but aft three months still cannt HAHA

lemme describe e situation then. first day i caome sch i feel proud as a sec 3 senior(i always feel proud first day of sch dno why haha) went into new classroom(which was just beside my old sec2 classroom) n dno whr to sit. so just dumped myself somewhr n stone. if nt stoning is findin frens. typical day, go in, put bag at seat without sayin hi( i think my face v serious so nobody dares to say hi) then go out of classroom like almost immediately aft ive settled my bag down n sort of chiong to find weike at her new classroom(upstairs) its like i nv tot of talkin to my new classmates to bond or smth but rather to live in my own world n go out with my frens. its what i din do that made the difference. if only i had taken the initiative to say hi, to immerse myself in conversations, to make an effort to fit in the new env i wudnt be blamin myself(or anyone) for being a loner for a whole year(or somewhr thr)

n now i wna share cos i don want history to repeat agn. ive re-evaluated my life in cdc n my sec 3 n sec4 lives respectively, n i think what made the difference btwn sec3 n sec4 is what i realised that ive been doin wrong for the whole while. the idea is FITTING IN. u fit in, u change to suit everyone, nt others fitting in with u n changing to click with u. one way to start it off can be by intiatin convos. see what topics ppl like and talk abt them, nt always abt the weather. nt everybody is interested in the weather but its a gd start off point. but dont dwell on it for too long unless the other party likes geography or smth related. haha i sound professional dont i? ;D (its cheeky grin btw)

ok its late. i think i will go memo my things now. tmr still gt trng, last day of the week. hope i still can rmb. ok then i shall continue my story nxt time bah. part I n part II. n if need be, part III too hahahh. &wow its a long post! so i will put a "warning" at the top of the post later. din expect it to be so long. haha cos its shu fa gan qing or smth liddat what. hope by sharin can help ppl with similar fan naos(i seriously cant think of the eng word for fan nao, so ya) n oso remind myslef dont let hist repeat itself. cos its nt worth it, really. i cud have been much more happier ok! n nt have to spend my sec 3 alone in this class like some lone ranger liddat! thats why im damn thankful to 7things, n to the class. love 3IT07(i still love ok!)/4IT08. miss ya guys eh! haha but tmls outing cannt go:( but hope to see all of u soon, esp my dear 7things! miss tffs laughter in class, miss turning arnd n eavesdroppin on jasme n wanjing(according to what the former says on her blog), miss turing to find ex-vicechair n chair tmm-ing, miss talkin to lx n lookin at his spastic face(no offence), miss jacie with the "tomato" on her nose, like pizza:D i guess its gone by now rite? miss debi n huilin who talk talk talk then suddenly turn back n make some comments. n debi thanks for "helping" me "publicise" me sayin smth funny(i forgt what i said or what it was abt) n made me the "laughing stock" of ppl:D miss the two neighbours on my left, when i turn they will be doin maths or smth liddat, aiya zong zhi is doing some work like homewrok or revision liddat la. damn hardworking luh. oh n the act-cute-not-so-really-cute huiyan who owns a biscuit company(i nv use act-cute-boh-cute ok! see i so nice!) n miss kevins lameness =.- haha finally i can use that sign on somebody le! n miss rachelle's claimings abt her being in love in wenhan, eh wenhan din even say anything la! n once they were even fighting on the class tagboard on whose wenhan "belongs" to. n nt forgettin junda the BD(black dog) always bully weiting arh, pull her hair n drink from her bottle, n pull wanjings hair too! oi u so bad eh. but now bi jiao ok le, gt yurong mah! :DDD n weiting, i still rmb the "washing waterbottle incident" in sec2. hahaha mr lam touch her waterbottle then she nid to go wash. LOL!! hahaha im tickled pink!!!! XDDD n the time cip when hanjie called himself laoda n wants to treat everybody to crystaljade! haha crystaljade must mention edward the crystaljade lover:D

gt others to write but its gettin late le. oh man its really good thinking abt those sweet memories, forever mine to keep unless i lose my memory or smth(CHOYCHOYCHOYCHOYCHOYCHOYCHOY TOUCHWOOD) but it really pains me that we are leavin each other. some of us may end up same sch same class, but the whole class is unable to get tgt n study tgt as a class le ;( cos all of us have different aspirations, but whatever u plan to achieve, guys(n gals too), i'll be behind u(as in supportin, nt standing behind scare ppl that kind) must keep in touch ok really hope can have another chalet nxt year(but is highly impossible cos everyones kinda busy with different things now) but must rmb the times we watch ji lao shi's video(that snail[wo niu] in particular), "slack" durin el lessons, n moan n yawn when thrs homework comin our way n all n all, but really, i think its the best times of my life:) oh so sentimental le.

oh im supposed to be slpin longlong time ago. 10plus liddat. tml still gt trng! hahah hope to be able to see u guys really soooon, miss u guys like hell! yea u guys *points to everybody* n me! *points to myself*

:DD