sad

idk. i feel damn damn damn sad all of a sudden. tears are overwhelming. but nobody scolded me or what. im just !%%^$^dfgHG?rtYE^%?^&&#>?>}{#%&#P{ now. mixed. maybe cos of e weird weird show on ch8 jus now. 10.30 tt one. i felt like cryin then. then jus now laome asked whether eds leavin for usa, then i gt really sad n tears cannot control themselves. but im nt really that sad u see? but im still sad, just not that kind of very very despair kind. like the whole world fall on u or everyone hate u that kind of miserable. im just... sad. maybe cos im workin soon n cant go out? now im really sad. really really damn sad.

totally no xmas mood. its like e xmas trees been thr since jan08? &i don want 08 to end. cos 09 is too much of an unknown. look im sad agn. nt emo, sad. like evrythings changing. &i dont think im that adaptable to changes. it usually took me one year to escape from lonerhood. but sometimes ppl are stuck at their first impression. yea. so its all my fault that cca turned out like this? hahah seriously i feel unaccomplished. im still a loner in cca i think. yea. who can i blame? (someone:"emo le orh!") (BY:"yea.") im tearin like mad now. no not really mad. aft talkin to laome. i dno but that must have hurt. as in when she told me, i dno why but i auto put myself in her shoes. (?!?) then i feel very sad. so "yan lei jiu xiang duan le xian de zhen zhu :: 眼泪就像断了线的珍珠" HAHAHA thats pri sch de can! lol ok im totally sad throughout this post. but this feelin of sadness feels gd? its like kuai le le, oso will cry de. so ya. things have been happening arnd me but im oblivious to them. so.... catch up anyone? tmr?

TO SUM EVERYTHING UP: SAD. SADNESS. LIL BIT OF SORROW.