usin a diff keyboard now. lol todays xmas:D went church today. but before that...

xmas present: 大姨妈

lol!!! nt some guang cai thing anw. lol anw after church went aljunied to buy shoes n perhaps clothes. then went bugis, n bot a pair of flats:D n i saw a girl wearin a exactly the same clothes(same colour n all) as a previous set of clothes i had previously bot n nt worn yet. hahahah felt like sellin it off! but hah din la.

anw im sick:( last night come back from work flu. then today worsened i guess? nt only flu, sore throat n abit feverish i think. plus todays "xmas present". so yea? kinda bad xmas? no xmas feel.
&&i think i cant go send ed on 28th. cos im unable to get leave. so now i can only swap shift with oth ppl. but aftnn shift starts at 1 or 2 can. or hopefully i get niteshift? but i don know whether can nite shift nt. aiya hope i can dont morn shift jiu dui liao. :((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( lucky gt keyboard to type if nt i use onscreen dno must click dao ji shi.

plannin to stop work somewhere before cny. but must consider whether they nid ppl nt. cannt later they nid ppl then u don work mah. so i think im stoppin work on 22/23 jan? hopefully can. cos i don wna work till end of jan. nid to prepare for sch de ok! aftall im still a student n nt a cashier. &i wna go out. make up for the times i missed out durin work. but ed..... ;((((((((((

anw my nxt off is on 29th dec. excess 5cent ystd. heard someone said she goin shoppin. lol! shall post my schedule up when i know ok! then can go for ssb outing:D &hopefully, class chalet? really hopefully lor. cos everybodys busy, with work, with outings, with overseas, with rpgs n mmorpgs. &ep gatherin is cancelled. idk i seriously dont know whether i wna go nt. i wna go bcos i wna catch up. i don wna go bcos im afraid i'll stone. im afraid i'll bcome like a loner agn. pls dont say "wont de lar!!" i know myself too well(or at least i think so). thats why i last min back out some outings lo! lol sometimes i don understand myself oso. when they ask me i agree, but then i will last min back out de lor!! so sry! but i guess this will always be like a scar in my heart, emotional heart DUH! once bitten twice shy?? hah for me is always bitten always shy. now i still shy lor!! lol thats why hen duo ren, almost everybody say i quiet.

lol i start gettin sentimental agn. long post liao. can read until here jiu gou le. below is just shu fa gan qing. lol if can read until here nid perseverance lol. above gt so big chunk. BRAVO!

start from sec 1 bah. that time i was really shy, idk why! then i joined cdc. idk why but i think my 4 yrs in cdc is a "disaster". i wanted to be popular n well liked, DUH WHO DOESNT WANT? as in like everyone knows who i am jiu gou le. but ended up lol! i think some juniors dont even know my name(or even i exist?) i still feel lonely in cdc. why? thats how i felt in sec 1. &sec 2 too. so sec 3 i tried to change myself. i kinda opened up n tried to talk more with ppl. but kinda failed i guess.

hmmm... there was supposed to be a huge chunk of words here. but i deleted them. cos.... i dno? too personal le?

finally... MERRY XMAS! its jesus's bday, so happy bday jesus!:D