&then i finally understand why

nt grammar error. yup, i suddenly understood why le. some things cannt be forced de. even time oso doesnt make a difference. well it did, but was minimal. but, i'll still continue to try my best, for myself, my future, and for all those im gonna miss out if i dont continue trying.

alright, enough of getting-nowhere talks.

说实话, im indeed a bit scared for orientation. worried cant fit in, worried get lost, worried late. its like theres nothing exactly worth for me to worry about. &worst of all, worried for uni(versity). erm isnt it like, too early?

well, you'd never know. oh anw i really hope to have some sort of study group, to do some serious studying. &i nid some maths pro to teach me maths, cos i haven been touching my amaths book since that day i was determined to start studying for maths. and thats not good. somehow i always am able to slip away from revising and studying. hmmm many many things to do tomorrow.

i wonder if i can 习惯 studying life again. cos too long never touch books le. i hope i can, cos competition's gonna be stiff.

quite a lot of ppl going same sch. but quite a lot appealing to vj. i feel like appealing too. for fun? but anw i know my chances of getting in are really, slimmer than slim. or perhaps i might if i change to arts? but geog, hist, lit? i mean so long never take hist lit n all le. anw i would really want to try to appeal but its seriously so ma fan u have to photocopy this and that, and end up might not get in. i mean im like very late appeal liao, if i really did. and plus those 5pointers and all, im like wating for a phone call that will never arrive. or to be more creative, waiting for an email that will never arrive. (somebody: u call that creative?!?)

im gonna start organising my words into smaller, shorter and sweeter paragraphs. cos its really tiring to read a huge chunk of words. and i din even mention huge chunks. all random thoughts that hop all over the place.

study group!! really scared i cant cope!!! ><

&yay, HAPPY BDAY NAT. may u soar in AC :DDDDDDD

sidenote: im hungry now. really hungry. should really quit late night surfing.