pls, keep me optimistic :((((

oh i dont know why but i cant make decisions. i will think n think alot de. n i cant quit work:((((( thats makin my life miserable u know cos i cant stand @!$!%#>?# customers. im really nt workin tues man. RAWR! cant think how am i goin to survive so many more days of work, altho its only until 23, but haiya, enthusiasm is gone le T.T i think the most impt thing in anything i do is must keep myself happy. if nt really, i quit. n sommore 8-5 or 2-10 eh! man die la! n sommore if gt %@$%#?>" customer i direct quit on the spot.

was havin a really hard time decidin abt the jc i wna go n the course im takin at uni. see, really, i xiang tai duo le! n i was damn fan just now tryin to think. n tmr still nid go work. RAWR CNY LOR! i wna quit man! nt goin to be cashier anymore le, it sucks it seriously do. gt gd n nice customer then ok, but those "not so gd" de, u really die. then worse, if like me, cannt ren de, miserable n now i cant quit. wth. (suan le dont put wtf) i feel its like no respect for cashier de lor. so no, no more cashier for me le. aft 23 im goin to be triple nerd. so im tryin to ren, tryin damn hard to ren my unhappiness. n i want cut my hrs. who cares abt the pay, i cant work so long u know. yea so ive decided le, at most i go overseas uni. so im er, savin up now? but still hope can end up in local u la. aiyo i sound like i just gt my a lvl results n is lookin for a uni now. dont xiang tai duo! hmmm n i think im too quiet to be arnd le, like so no fun de leh. like u tok to a person then he keep givin one word ans. hope i can be more outgoin in jc(cos poly i only put 2 choices) n really! no matter which jc i go , i must somehow(nt magically) land myself in uni. yea, my goal. study medicine in uni. local u. n now is 1.07am le. heck care latr gt work. I WANT TO QUIT. yes quit nownownow!! man why din i quit earlier? n why am i so "easy to talk to"? shud have been more insistent n just QUIT! quit quit quit, who cares whether im a loser or smth, im feelin damn upset now. n yea, i cant ren, seriously cant. like what i said in the blog i deleted, its sucks nt being able to retaliate, nt that u dont have the ability, but ure restricted. rahhhh highly don recommend this job to introverts, cos u'll feel hurt.

cannt be shy le lar! can anybody teach me how to be nt shy? if nt jc i will end up loner agn T.T n senior says jc is damn diff. yea n competition is fierce. must be at the top, once u fall it'd be difficult to climb back up agn. so must be doubly hard. n make ur own notes i think. n cos i want medicine must be xtra gd i think. unless i halfway decide to switch which im considering now. but to what ne? business?? finance? tourism? nahnah dont think i can do service. n yea, cant imagine myself doin banking or smth. so? hmmm cannt fail myself agn. cos ive failed myself two times le. 1st psle. 2nd o lvls. yea, speak frankly im disappointed. with my overall results. nt to mention certain subjs like el which gave me a sweet surprise, im quite disappointed la. esp chem. supposed to be my best sub, but gt a2. like... idk? predicted a1 but come out is a2. dno la, quite gd alrdy, but ya, still disappointed arh! amaths some what expected la, altho im still sad cos its the b on my result slip. sry amaths! i'll make sure i gt really really gd grades for jc maths. n hey, phy n ch nt bad! but only gt one a1. so yuh, quite disappointed la. maybe too high expectations on myself le? hahah but i know the real reason why i gt these grades, n some what deserved them too. yea but im one point away! this is regret ok. yong yuan de hen. i'll ji zhu u forever!

woah so long alrdy! i really heck care tmr gt work lor. I WANT QUIT I WANT QUIT I WANT QUIT BUT I FREAKINLY CANT QUIT. right im tired now. hope tmr nt much ppl. really im counting down to last day of work. sry, but i cant help it, cos im so unhappy.

go out on 28, 29, 30 or 31? i think i'll be really happy those days ba, pls pls pls dont let anything bad happen durin these few days or what. n yea, scared sch postin results. man this month is really scary n unhapppy.

i want go out!!!!! nt to work of cos.