a lot of things nid to be changed. like study habits etc. &&i suddenly missed chung cheng for the simpleness. nt pure innocent or so, rather like dont nid to think so much. i could join any ccas i want, without consideration that i'll nid it for my higher education. and to think of it now actually it's quite important. ok so final conclusion, for a person like me, everything nids to be planned beforehand, so that i dont nid to think so much cos everythings thought of already and what i do is to follow the path and most probably i'll be fine. unless there's some pebble or what sticking out somewhere waiting to trip me over. and if that happens i hope i can find a bit of plaster or something. okok enough of these "abstract" things.

alright, im beginning to wonder how would life be if i went to poly instead. will the stress be not as much, as much as, or much more? i dont know if im feeling lonely now or what, cos theres no one close to me in the same class. and i dno, quite few ppl are in alpha? so its time to depend on myself. yup yup im socialising and making friends for myself now. hmmm cos if i dont i will have no friends? hahaha so that little bit of loner is still in me la!!

im really =D when i received v day present from new friend. cos i thot everybody not so shou yet. but was really surprised that she had a present for me. n i had none for her. so erm can kui???? and yeah, im trying not to be emo/antisocial/loner/zibi. quite looking forward to civics next wed! okok wait diff topic le so im goin to seperate post now.